That is a crazy hard question to figure out. Finding the answer is no cake walk. Most of the people we know don't have a good sounding answer to that and many other questions (well, some do, but not many).
We encourage you to to keep up your curious behavior and continue to wrestle with those big questions.
You might not be sure if God exists, but we live on an amazing planet full of animals and plants and insects all living in harmony. Don't forget to take a few moments from your busy life to discuss your thoughts with a variety of Christians. You might be surprised at the responses you get.
Oh, if you find the answer to the brain twisting question "Could God make a burrito so hot, he himself could not eat it?" please let us know.